Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Cant a girl get any support?

All my friends are full of caring advice and nasty, rude, hurtful comments. I have heard everything from he is a stalker, to he probably has ten girls he is writing to, dont believe his romeo crap - he is lieing to you! ..and why on earth would I want an old, drug dealing heroin addict? Im only gonna get hurt and he is just out to hurt me. He has nothing better to do all day then sit there writing letters full of every imaginable lie he can dream up... to what? Get a couple stamps? That he uses.. to write back to me!! All these things people are saying are being said based on NOTHING. They dont know him, have never spoken to him, have no idea what he is writing to me, how he thinks and feels (as if he could HAVE feelings!) and are all generalized... based on one thing; the fact that he is in prison. It doesnt matter if he is a good guy... he is in prison! It doesnt matter if he is the nicest person in the world... he is in prison! I "need" a guy that is out here in the (so-called) free world.. so he can take me to a movie! Thats right... only bad guys are in prison and good guys are out here waiting to take me out, treat me good and be my one and only true love. Im horrified. Seriously horrified at some of my friends reactions. Only ONE - count them ONE person has stood by me from day one, all the rest have not. Im really glad that you all love me so much but love me by supporting me in this. Its difficult enough as it is, I dont need hurtful and cruel things being said to me. I practice the art of acceptance. I dont feel the need to tell my friends or family, what to do and how to live, based on my life style or thoughts. I dont project myself onto them and condemn them accordingly. I ACCEPT. Something my dear ol' friends could stand to take a lesson in. I love my friends, but sometimes I dont particularly like them. My man in prison has shown more integrity by far through this. I think I know where my hat is hung.